Al Eingang thanks me for ordering porn

So, I ordered some porn. Then, the porn maker (well, he's an independent and he's one of like, the only 3 dudes filming themselves sucking their own cocks) emails me to thank me and ask if I'd be willing to tell him why I bought it. Apparently women rarely order his stuff, and, he had one woman earlier this week, so it's all thrilling.

I recognize that only men would be expected to order a DVD of a dude sucking himself thoroughly to completion, in various nasty yummy ways, but I assure you, if women love sucking cock too, this shouldn't be too surprising.

Anyhoo, very bottom is his email, and immediately above it, my response.


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From: Miriam M. Wynn
Date: Aug 23, 2006 10:59 PM
Subject: Re: Online transaction receipt
To: Al Eingang <al@solosuck.com>

Hi Al,

Wow, personalized service! How do you know I'm a woman? Miriam couldbe male! Just kidding ...

Ok, how I got to your site, why I chose to buy ... a bit roundabout,but explores sexuality basically. Below I get into detail ... ;)

So, there's an argument floating around that starts with the(heterosexual) male appreciation of the sight of two women havingsex/enjoying each other. The heterosexual male is sexually aroused bythe sight of one female and the sight of two multiplies the pleasurehe feels.

Reverse it - it is therefore perfectly natural that a heterosexualfemale would feel the exact same thing for the sight of two mentogether. Women are getting more comfortable with sharing that on theweb and in magazines, etc. Not only exploring that huge appreciationfor the male body, but the male body with itself ... the male bodyeven BY itself.

Now, I have a strong appreciation for sex in many many forms. Iconsider myself heterosexual but appreciate the sight of two mentogether, two women together, a man and woman together, group sex,etc. And then of course there are dozens of play variations which I'mstill exploring. It led to me purchasing lots and lots of porn on moremainstream sites, some of which include gay porn.

From this, I discovered a real trigger with the sight of a manejaculating but not in the typical "squirt on someone's face and moana little" fashion. The mainstream, boring way, is that the persondoing the blow job does all this work, the receiving guy jacks off abit. Then, bam, the "money shot" but it's not at all emotional orpsychological. So, that makes it distasteful to me and boring and evena little disrespectful (to the giver).

But sometimes in porn, straight or gay, I've found some really intenseshots of a man coming in whatever fashion (hetero, gay, anal, oral,whatever) where he's experiencing something so strong he's forced toreally lose himself. That's what men get off on in hetero, maledominated porn featuring women as sex objects. That's what I get offon if I can catch it, in the reverse. We're used to men pummellingwomen into wild orgasms; the reverse drives me absolutely crazy when Isee it.

In particular if the exploration of the penis is really reallythorough (rather than basic pumping, gagging, quick ejaculation),where it's really played with and the person playing with the penis isgetting off on pleasuring the receiver, and the receiver is so out ofhis mind he makes noises or body language, etc., that show he is doingmore than the basic pump and shoot - but is truly beside himself withpleasure.

Somehow along the way with all the porn, I came across someautofellatio link and found your site. I actually found it months ago. I'm a bit addicted to porn, and get bored easily, so I own a lot andskip around scenes a lot trying to find the things that get to me.Some key sequences with men, as I've described above, got to me. I began thinking I should just buy one of your videos because somepieces of what I saw turned me on.

I have to admit that I looked at more mainstream sites first. I'm a girl, I like things pretty and shiny - packaging, presentation, filmquality, all that. But, the other sites didn't have convincing scenesthat seemed to match how thoroughly you give yourself over to the act- the clips on your site make it clear how much you love the taste ofyour own come and your own body, and that you're willing and able toexplore it thoroughly. Competing videos make a big fuss that someoneis sucking on themselves but from their clips I only see men workinghard to barely pass their own tips. Not enough for me. :)

And, what you can do is rare, so, I just rooted around your pics andreviews to get what looked like the most "sure bet."

The sight of a man truly enjoying himself, whose emotive and truly intouch with his body is a sight to behold - it's powerful enough tomake a woman or a man lose it. Just as the reverse is true (a manlosing it at the sight of a woman losing it for him, or not even that,just for herself).

So, I look forward to seeing your DVD when it gets here! If you'rewondering why I wrote so much or am so free with all this sex talk, Ihave an erotic story website, so I'm used to talking dirty. ;)

Cheers,
Miriam

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Miriam M. Wynnhttp://www.worderotic.com


On 8/23/06, Al Eingang <al@solosuck.com> wrote:

Hi Miriam,

Thank you very much for your order! I don't get many orders from women and this is my second this week - it's great! I should be able to put your DVD in the mail tomorrow, so you'll probably have it by Monday or Tuesday. I'm always interested to hear how people find out about my videos and my Website, so if you have a minute to let me know, I'd appreciate it.

Thanks!

Al Eingang

fall 2006 update

irony how i return every year or so to post ... heheh. the danger in a blog is you treat it like a journal yet it's visible. you want to share everything then realize there's potential trouble in sharing everything. it also requires committment to keep posting somewhere on yourself. i like to talk but sheesh.

anyway. as of fall 2006 i remain:

- single
- back up to 248 lbs or something
- horny
- some of my stock's been cashed in
- i bought a condo that still hasn't been completed (july 2005)
- i have a new mazda 6 hatchback
- my sister turned 18 and moved away from home and is supposed to go to Univ of Hawaii
- my status (or lack there of) with men:

a) n: he's moving to india with his 1+ yr girlfriend. we flirt but that's about it. according to my psychic tarot reading, he wants me sexually but has an inherent aversion to me or my attitude. he feels i'm arrogant/stuck up. according to "Spirit," something i said or did to him once contributed to this and he can't let it go/stop the grudge.

i distinctly remember telling him "i don't like what's easy." at the time, he was playing around with 2 coworkers that i knew of, and later i learned there was a 3rd. he probably thought i meant i like a challenge if i pursue a guy. that i saw him as easy to get and therefore didn't want him. it was more complicated than that.

what i really meant was, "i don't date or sleep with sluts." of course if i'd said that he might have screamed in outrage and slapped me.

while all males are sluts, some are looser than others. a man who insists he isn't sleeping around with anyone yet goes back to his bedroom with a clearly possessive girl and invites you back to the room with them is probably a slut.

then he displayed a remarkable ability to remain faithful to his gf for over a year. then again he flirted with me while doing so. sloppy. every time we're in a room together his eyes are on me like he wants me to make a pass at him and risk the wrath of his woman and the gods. silly git.

i want to bang him once and then be done with it. there is always chemistry. the issue is, i don't want sex, i want love. and he probably doesn't have it. that's also what i meant by not wanting something "easy." sex is easy. love is not.

b) jamba jack: showed up on my doorstep at the beginning of the year. i was fairly shocked, yet not. why should i be surprised someone so ADD and clueless would not gather how very through i was with him when i dumped him at the corner of El Camino and Los Padres by the bus stop, and hightailed it without waving goodbye or showing up at the place he worked at for another TWO YEARS?

he announced he had a new car (purchased for him by his uncle - for being such a good responsible boy). he still isn't married to the fiance he cheated on with me. he now works at some foundry/industry place in my town, neary my place. he figured he could stop by after work with his own vehicle and BANG ME ON THE WAY HOME. i expressed reservations. he insisted she could never find out.

he whined, "you did it before, why not now?"

i responded, "not with the likes of you." i said it fairly calmly, no anger or resentment, just the way you'd say "no, i don't think so" to a stranger rolling up in their car and asking you if you'd like to get in. no, and why i should i? what on earth would make you think i'd do it?

of course, i DID do it before. i learned my lesson. no matter how hard up i am, a creature like that is just so no worth it. plus, he had a big schlong. it hurt. i don't want to repeat the trauma.

c) josh the FL lawyer: yeah so i've never met him, but the voicemail he left me to set up our first phone call about my condo purchase, and the phone call that ensued, made me soak my panties. we send occasional emails via his work address that remain utterly platonic. but we both, via
email, acknowledged that we were terribly impressed by each other's voices.

his voice makes my eardrum melt along with everything else. i've never had that instantaneous an aural reaction to a man's voice before. i've you know, shivered with enjoyment or like, purred with pleasure when listening to the voice of a man i just like (aka, Vin Diesel) but, never just gotten wet.

alas, when we see each other, we'll probably be deeply disgusted. oh well.

d) evalencia, the shipping/receiving boy, moved to facilities. i changed my mind about him, he's an arrogant, creepy cad. ech. he played the "i don't see you" game when i passed him in a hall (when people do that shit and know i'm right there i stop bothering with engaging with them if i can help it). then he turned around and added me on myspace. where he apparently hunts for youngish girls in the area. ew.